The sound of Aaron Houdd

Specially dedicated to Houdd's crazy aunties yang always ask me to upload more and more videos of him. As if I have nothing else to do :D

P/S: Aaron Houdd now is 22 months old, another couple of months to turn 2! 

A little rambling

I should have been sleeping by now. Our flight to Oman is just in 7 hours ahead. Instead, I'm busying myself with the laundry, some cleaning, and this :p. It's half past midnight already and my hubby is still somewhere outside there in the cold winter breeze, keeping up with his work.

Aaron Houdd is not sleeping well tonight, he keeps changing positions every now and then. It's just about 3 hrs he's been sleeping but he has woken up 3 times for breastfeeding. Oh boy.

Nothing much in this entry. Nothing beneficial out of this entry. If you happen to read this, I'm sorry for taking your precious time...

I just feel a wee bit sappy yet very ecstatic with our trip tomorrow. Something big is gonna happen very soon (next year, few more days only) and this is considered a first-small-empirical step for our future. I hope we gonna love this place, The Sultanate of Oman, another gas-rich GCC country.

Other than that, especially for our future as one blissful family, I pray to Allah to keep showers his blessing to us. We are doing great these four years, and wish more happiness to come the years ahead.

Oh... I've been thinking to change my blog template and font. I don't know, maybe to something more mature? hehe... I love this font but herm... been using this for more than a year already. No particular design in my brain yet, for sure I love originality and hope to come out with something unique and suit my personality (and my boy, of course)... My hubby will just happy with whatever outcome. He's a 'good' supporter on something less important like this - Like 'oh God, can't we just use any color or font that people can read?' :) But maybe not now. Nah, still very busy for something like this- not in the priority list. We'll see when I can spare some time for this.

OK, time's out. Better continue my packing and finish the chores before my hubby returns home. Hehe

Till then,
Night night, and sleep tight friends!

Marriage problems

Like any textbook you read about marriage, I'd like to claim that every couple has their own problems. Normally, problems occur based on environmental factors and attitudes, so each couple may undergo different major marriage problems from the other. However, one problem may intersect with another, especially if the particular problem is not solved properly….

Some couples have problems with their financial. Like mentioned in my previous entry, financial issue, if not being properly managed, can lead to marriage issue. And I’ve heard many stories (and watched many movies) showing the effect of financial problems to a marriage.

 Some couples experience intimacy problems. Either one party feels overburdened, unappreciated and unheard, or the other party has problem to manage supremacy. In depth, believe it or not, sexual intercourse is among the top that contribute to marriage problem. I’m not sure about other races, but we Malay often feel very hard to talk about sexual intercourse. It is like a taboo to disclose this issue, let alone to share problems or doubt, even for improvement purposes.

After a long journey of marriage, some people may feel tired or sick of their spouse. Everything seems overdramatic. What used to be important is no longer seems important.  On the other hand, some couples always fight over the demand of more time they should’ve spent together. Strange but truth, often the little time they have together is spent for fighting and quarrel of how much more time they need.  

Some people have problems with the in laws. Amongst all problems could arise in marriage, this one is the most wretched! How pity when marriage ought to unite people does the opposite. I’m neither pointing finger to the mother, nor to the child (often happen to daughter) in law. I just feel so sad at this kind of situation because it involves many parties, not just the husband and wife, thus makes this problem more complicated than the other, and may be the hardest to solve. I really hope we are exempted from this kind of situation.

Some may have problems with their distance. It’s a norm nowadays that young married couples practice long distant relationship (LDR), and the most well known reason is because of career.  Some people that I know object to this kind of relationship for whatever reason may be, you know, like they say, what’s the point of marriage if you can’t be together? My hubby dislike this kind of impractical relationship (according to him), because of many factual reasons, but I think the most underlying reason is that he can’t bear to be apart from me, but so sad we will be among those couples who have to deal with LDR for the next few months.

I was once really against this long-distant relationship because it’s very hard to maintain a good relationship in such a way. Lack of intimacy, lack of information and connection, lack of communication, lack of sharing… All can pilot too many misunderstandings. And misunderstanding is no good in marriage. (Bear in mind, this is about marriage, not pre-marriage relationship)

But truth is, distant is not the main problem. What’s the point of having someone in front of you but is not really with you? What’s the point of existence if it’s merely physical? Now, I’m getting to understand how some people can bear long distant relationship… (Still will be my last resort).

For whatever reason of the problems, there must be solutions. It is just the matter of how we’re gonna find for the solutions, as a team, for the sake of the marriage itself.

I am not a marriage expert, as I myself experience many problems through our marriage journey.  I have to admit our marriage problems mostly involve our time as a family. As many of my friends can enjoy daily routine with their spouse, we’re lack in this…

But one thing I am sure, communication is very important. Without good communication, no matter how close you are with each other, problems can’t be solved properly. The indication may vary to each couple. You may fight the whole night, wailing like crazy, or maybe sit together for hours, whichever suit you, but the whole objective is to make sure everybody is being heard, respected and at the end, the problems can be solved. If you still have barrier, maybe a kind of hidden shield that avoid you from being vocal, there’s always other options. You can write letter, email, sms, or maybe leave a voice mail? Anything, as long as you create a healthy communication out of it. Avoiding problems isn’t a good choice, and it could even make thing worse for the long run.

I’ve learnt a lot about marriage and family my entire life. I’ve seen various cases. The best conclusion I could make is, if there’s will, there’s way. You may face the oddest kind of problem in your marriage but hey, it’s your marriage, so it’s up to you whether or not you want to make it work.

And always be thankful for what we have. Muhasabah is the best thing we should do, so that we know what to improve and to remove. We can be the reflection to each other, reminding each other to be a better person…  Yes if you’re married, you knew that we can expect repetition of quarrels. Perhaps the exact same things will reappear for the next ten years. But take it positively. We feel exhausted and annoyed, but maybe that could be our reminders to stay being good. Otherwise, that is our identity of who we really are as a couple!  :P

Oh I read this one article in SuhaibWebb regarding problem in marriage due to distance. Heh heh... This website has column for relationship, and it's very amazing. Please click here to go to the story. 


*the broken egg was taken from here 

* the secret jar was taken from here

Merancang kehamilan, cara mana?

Tajuk kali ini adalah tentang MERANCANG KEHAMILAN...

Tajuk ni dah berkurun lama I draft dalam otak. Konon nak mencari mood sesuai tapi biasalah mood selalu tak datang and I bukanlah seorang yang sangat kuat daya ingatan so akhirnya I buat la mood sendiri untuk discuss topik ni...

So, pasal apa dengan MERANCANG KEHAMILAN ni?

Nak dijadikan cerita, during my last check up with my gynea almost 2 years ago, Dr. just check my incision site, my uterus condition and my general health condition je. And I ingat 2 perkara yang Dr cakap 1) My incision site cantik and dah boleh pakai bikini pun 2) My uterus and health condition pun dah ok and kalau nak preggy lagi right away pun dah takde masalah... (What? right away?!)

And di dalam meeting tu sebenarnya Dr discuss pasal family planning. Dr terangkan tentang cara2 untuk merancang kehamilan. Ada a few cara termasuklah IUD, diaphragm, vasectomy, implant, condoms and withdrawal.

Basically, ramai pasangan menggunakan cara withdrawal untuk mencegah kehamilan. Withdrawal ni cara mudahnya is melakukan ejaculation di luar vagina. Cara ni paling zero cost. Tapi dalam masa yang sama it is very risky and less effective. Accodring to my gynea, pre-ejaculation juga mengandungi sperma yang cukup banyak untuk menyebabkan kehamilan. Kalau biasa dengar kes orang cakap dia buat 'family planning' but tiba2 si isteri pregnant and mereka cakap 'accident', mostly sebab mereka menggunakan cara ini.... So kesimpulannya, kalau rasa memang tak nak pregnant lagi and perlu menjarakkan kandungan, janganlah guna cara ini.... 

Kalau kondom pulak, lebih kurang 78% sahaja effectiveness of using condom as birth control. Sebab, kita tak boleh sure 100% yang each and every condom yang digunakan adalah tidak rosak. And kebanyakan pasangan juga tidak berapa menyukai penggunaan kondom. 

Mengikut suggestion Dr, kalau muda lagi, better tak payah ber IUD and Diaphragm bagai. Yela, kan ada plan nak baby lagi kan. Benda alah tu semua mahal dan sakit dan biasanya untuk orang yang memang takmo baby dah. Kalau macam implant tu pula boleh mengundang problem kepada produksi susu. Siapa2 yang masih menyusukan baby tak digalakkan buat implant, takut susu tak keluar. Tapi ia bergantung juga kepada individu.. So cara paling effective dan senang untuk orang muda yang nak TEMPORARY planning sahaja adalah dengan mengambil BIRTH CONTROL PILL.

Cara ni mudah sebab bila kita nak planning ambil je pil tu, and bila rasa dah sesuai untuk pregnant lagi just stop taking the pill. Cumanya yang susah adalah untuk orang yang tak reti disiplin macam I sebab pil ni kena diambil hari2 pada waktu yang konsisten! 

And birth control pills ada berjenis2. But for a breastfeeding mom, pill yang selamat digunakan dan tidak mengganggu production susu dan nutrisi baby is  NORIDAY. And ia boleh didapat di pharmasi2 berdekatan rumah anda....

Bila orang tanya I, I akan jawab dengan jujur yang yes, I was taking the pill. Kebanyakan muka yang respon memang agak mengerikan as in taking pill is not safe and cause many side effects. Antara side effect yang famous adalah nanti jadi gemuks and lepas stop pill takut terus mandol (ayat mudah paham la tu ekk). In fact, sometimes seriously cara dorang respon as in I buat salah besar.

Actually pill zaman sekarang ni kebanyakannya safe from those side effects. Biasalah setiap benda yang artificial mengundang side effects. So does this pill. Antara side effectnya adalah peod yang tak teratur (untuk Noriday but for some other pills like Jasmine, the menstrual cycle is fine), sometimes boleh dizzy, and it is stated that some pills can increase the risk of breast cancer. But the risk is only there during the time we consume the pill. Bila kita stop ambil ubat tu, there's no more risk of getting breast cancer. And juga boleh mempercepatkan kadar stress... Yela, pill2 ni semua berkaitan hormon kan. Maka ianya bergantung kepada individu juga on how our body tolerate with the medication.

Tapi ada juga beneficial effects from the pill. Antaranya adalah mengurangkan risiko vaginal infection (sebab mucus akan jadi agak pekat kalau ambil pill so kurang infection), kurang risiko cervical cancer and kurang risiko pregnant la apa lagi. Hehehe...

Apa2 pun, before taking any medicine, kita kena tau adakah kita mempunyai penyakit lain atau alahan atau makan ubat lain yang boleh contra indicate dengan pill ni. Tu yang penting sebenarnya. Sebab I think kalau kita normal sihat, inshaAllah takde apa... So silalah mendapatkan konsultasi daripada doktor2 bertauliah untuk menentukan cara mana yang sesuai dan pill apa yg terbaik utk kita (sekiranya mengambil pil).

As for me, pengalaman mengambil pil ni selama dekat setahun jugak la, I takde apa2 masalah kegemukan (OK, klu I gemuk pn sebab I yang suka teman hasben makan malam2 pastu terus tidur and malas excersice, so jangan nak salahkan pill). I jugak tak mengalamai stress yang melampau sampai kena jumpa psikatrist. I jugak masih menyusukan budak kecik-besar tu sampai sekarang. Cuma yes, my menstrual cycle agak problem...

Kesimpulannya, semuanya masih di dalam kawalan... Alhamdulillah.

Tujuan I cerita tentang benda alah ni semua bukanlah nak promote family planing or any birth control pill. I cuma rasa yang masyarakat sekarang masih skeptik terhadap pengambilan pil atau alatan lain bagi merancang kehamilan. Kebanyakan orang masih rasa benda ni is like cerita dalam kain yang very personal and hanya hasben and wife je boleh share. Sebab survey mengatakan bahawa masyarakat kita masih segan silu untuk bertanya tentang hal2 begini, dan masih takut untuk mencuba cara yang lebih advance daripada natural way (withdrawal). Tapi dalam masa yang sama, perkara ni sepatutnya bukanlah perkara asing di dalam zaman modern sekarang ni sebab masalah rumah tangga, masalah sosial dan banyak masalah lain berhubung kait dengan isu2 macamni... Apatah lagi, jika anak yang kita pregnant kan tu dikatakan sebagai 'anak accident'.... Kan tak molek tu.

Wallahua'lam...

Doa seorang ibu

Sebelum I buka lembaran thesis yang memeningkan kepala, I'd like to spend approx. 5 min to share one thing yang sebenarnya dah amat femes di kalangan kita: Kata-kata seorang ibu adalah sebuah doa.

Dari kecil, kita orang Islam memang sinonim dengan adab terhadap orang tua. Kita dah biasa dengar yang anak kena respect parents, no matter how. Satu ayat yang popular kita dengar adalah ayat dari surah Al-Isra' ayat 23 yang bermaksud:

"Dan tuhanmu telah perintahkan, supaya engkau tidak menyembah melainkan kepadaNya semata-mata, dan hendaklah engkau berbuat baik kepada ibu bapa. Jika salah seorang dari keduanya, atau kedua-duanya sekali, sampai kepada umur tua dalam jagaan dan peliharaanmu, maka janganlah engkau berkata kepada mereka (sebarang perkataan kasar) sekalipun perkataan "Uf", dan janganlah engkau menengking menyergah mereka, tetapi katakanlah kepada mereka perkataan yang mulia (yang bersopan-santun)"

Itu adalah tuntutan dan tanggungjawab seorang anak terhadap ibu bapanya.

Tapi perlu kita ingat, pendidikan awal datang dari rumah, di bentuk oleh ibu bapa itu sendiri. Sebagai ibu bapa, kita pasti berharap yang anak-anak akan sayang dan hormat pada kita. Tapi semua itu harus dimulakan oleh ibu bapa itu sendiri. Ibu bapa yang perlu mengajar anak bagaimana caranya untuk berkomunikasi dengan baik dan saling hormat menghormati.

Sebagai contoh, kalau kita tak mahu anak menengking kita, maka janganlah amalkan tabiat tengking menengking di dalam rumah. Apatah lagi menggunakan kata-kata kasar dan tak sesuai di dengar. Amat malu sekiranya seorang ibu/bapa itu sendiri yang mendedahkan kepada anak perkataan2 yang tak sedap di dengar dek telinga.

Apatah lagi, kata-kata seorang ibu/bapa itu adalah satu doa.

Dari Abu Hurairah beliau berkata, bersabda Nabi Muhammad Shalallahu `alaihi wassalam, “Ada tiga doa yang tidak diragukan lagi akan dikabulkan, yaitu doa orang yang terzalimi, doa orang yang sedang safar (bepergian), dan doa orang tua terhadap anaknya.” (Ash Shahihah 596, hasan)

Ibu bapa hendaklah bijak memilih kata-kata yang baik, sekalipun dalam keadaan marah atau gurauan. Selain daripada doa, kata-kata yang datang dari ibu bapa memberi kesan yang besar di dalam hidup anak2. Cuba bandingkan jika kawan kita cakap "Kau ni bodoh" dengan jika ibu sendiri yang cakap. Mana yang lebih memberi kesan psikologi?

Menjadi trend sesetengah orang muda, suka menggunakan bahasa yang so-called cool, yang kadang2 mendatangkan maksud yang tak baik. Begitu juga tabiat mencarut yang dirasakan tak apa. Kebanyakannya akan beranggapan mampu berubah bila dah punya anak. Tapi kita sendiri tahu yang sesebuah perkara, jika sudah menjadi tabiat, amat sukar untuk diubah....

Kebanyakan ibu bapa suka membuat kesimpulan tanpa perhitungan. Mana yang dilihat depan mata, itulah yang diambil kira. Sedangkan tak semestinya apa yang dilihat tu sama seperti yang kita sangka. Menghukum anak berdasarkan kesimpulan mudah adalah satu tabiat yang negatif di dalam parenting. Sedangkan masa kita kecil dulu pun, kita tak suka kalau kena hukum tanpa usul periksa, apatah lagi jika kita tak salah. Tapi bila dah jadi ibu/bapa, kita buat perkara yang sama kepada anak2 kita.... Ini juga boleh memberi kesan negatif terhadap anak.

Jika kita datang dari latar belakang keluarga yang saling bertukar2 kata2 kasar, maka kitalah yang kena mulakan langkah baru, supaya anak kita dan generasi seterusnya tidak meneruskan tradisi keluarga yang negatif begitu. Daripada menuding jari kepada nasib dan keadaan, lebih baik menggunakan anugerah Allah, akal, untuk menilai buruk baik sesuatu perkara....

Sebuah perkara yang amat biasa kita dengar, yang kita sudah sedia maklum, tapi kadangkala perlu ada peringatan supaya tidak dilupakan :-)

Wallahua'lam

One undeniable thing I'd learnt in parenthood is, to always improve myself in order to educate my child. 

Beza antara kentut and coklat

Say Cheese! or rather eat cheeseee!

Sorry for the improper title... tak senonoh la Ummi Aaron ni...hehe...

I'd told you that Aaron can now articulate some words...Right?  Even so, not all words he can pronounce correctly.

For instance,

He refers fart as 'kotot'
and chocolate as 'kocot' (maybe chocolate tu dah jadi terbalik ke cocholate, with easier pronunciation)

Sometimes.... we got confuse between the two :)

So when he says "Daddy kotot', we got confused whether he is telling us whether the daddy is farting or he wants chocolate - He never admit he ever has kotot. He'll accuse somebody else, normally the daddy :P

Way to go Aaron Houdd! :-)

Amateur

ni la ketua nya rupanya.... Daddy & Son...

Canggih tuuuu!

Life is short

He's a big boy now.... with rambut angry bird.

I made a phone call to my bestie last few night. No particular reason, just to have some chat. In return, I’d been told one bad news- one of my ex-schoolmate passed away because of dengue.

She used to be my classmate for 2 years. We were prefects and we used to go to meetings together. I used to be quite close to her but not that really, really close, as I didn’t really stay close to anybody during my form 4 & 5, except for my few (crazy) girls (up till now-blessed! :P)

But what makes me couldn’t forget about the news was the fact the she’d left 2 very young children. We were married the same year (but apparently many of my friends who were married at the same year or even later, have had more than one child J)… And I think their youngest child is as the same age with Aaron Houdd.

That… was the point that I couldn’t stop thinking about the news. I couldn’t sleep that night, and in fact I was whimpering on my hubby’s shoulder for quite long. He knew me so well already that he didn't even ask why I took the news so personally.

And I stayed awake almost the whole night, cuddling, kissing and studying my dear son.

I just couldn’t stop thinking…. That it could have been me. It could have been me…

I know everybody will die anyway. And death never compromise age. And I truly believe that Allah knows best, that He’s the Most Guardian, and He takes care of every living being in this universe. I guess when the time comes, we know that we don’t have choice but to leave, so perhaps… perhaps, there’s not much to think about. And so we just leave. Otherwise, the only thing we’d have in our mind on our last day is the preparation we’ve made our entire life to ‘survive’ in the afterlife. Was it enough?

But for a mother, to leave the small child behind, knowing the fact that the child still need more to learn, still need her in almost every part of his/her growing episode… Oh, that’s trembling! For the person who is still alive, and is a mother, if I ever imagine myself to leave my son behind, I just can’t tell how much it’d tear my heart apart. Maybe I am not ready yet, maybe I am so attached to this temporary world which I know I shouldn’t, but I am just an ordinary human being… And I am a mother.

A mother always put herself last when it comes to children.

  

Life is short… So take this as a wakeup call to preparing myself for ‘my time’…..

Abu Huraira (Allah be pleased with him) reported Allah’s Messenger (may peace be upon him) as saying:

When a man dies, his acts come to an end, but three, recurring charity, or knowledge (by which people) benefit, or a pious son, who prays for him (for the deceased).

{Book 013, Chapter 4, Number 4005 : Sahih Muslim}

When he calls us and we ignore...

Often hear that parents have to beware of whatever they want to utter, especially in front of the children... coz children learn from what they hear and see, and mostly from their everyday people around them?

Hah, I couldn't agree more....

Often when we're in the middle of conversation, the two of us, the daddy and the ummi talking, suddenly, there's small voice repeating after ours... Not all words of course, but surprisingly he hits the key words only... :D

 And since-I-don't-remember, he sometimes calls us Yanggg (abbrev. for Sayang), especially after a few attempt of calling and we don't answer/appear.... Or sometimes he just calls us that way whenever he likes.

The 21st months. Another 3 months to go

Dear Aaron Houdd,

Do you remember the day when I was eating my yogurt for lunch and you came to me and took the balance yogurt and smeared it over my face and my hair?

And than you said "Haasem" (handsome) to me...

And so I paid you back, smudged your nose with the yogurt, and your cheeks, and your forehead.

And you said "Haasem", this time referring to yourself....

We both had our best giggles together.
It was a fun day wasn't it?

-- These days, there are only the two of us around most of the time. And we have become a good teammate. Thank you for giving me all the mess, following me to everywhere, and 'helping' me with the chores...

And thank you for always be there for me, for good and for bad.

Thank you for being my best friend
I LOVE YOU EVERYDAY!

Happy 21 month old Aaron Houdd...

How to enjoy yummy cornflakes, by Aaron Houdd

Last night, as I was reading my journal for a good 5 minutes (or maybe less?), Aaron Houdd suddenly came and spilled his chicken porridge over my lappy's keyboard.... I was perplexed and almost went nuts!

Than, just after that, he did something else....

I was so exhausted... and couldn't take any more pressure (Imagine now that your laptop is so messy)... I just let him enjoy whatever he was doing....

And than, decided to just enjoy the moment, took it as one of his learning process, I ended up making a video out of the chaos....

And the video is specially dedicated to my family members, especially those who always ask me to upload more photos and videos of Aaron Houdd (like everyday asking me to do that, OK! hehe)....

To Tok Daddy, we know you may geleng kepala and cakap Ummi Aaron tak senonoh and all, but that's the point! Hahaha.... Chillax and peace! :)

So enjoy!

Oppsss.. Don't worry, so far Aaron sihat walafiat and tak sakit perut ke apa.... hehe.

Dua gambar kat atas tu Aaron amek sendiri, dia tekan self-timer kot. Hahaha.... self obsession, like who? (Daddy, sila jawab.haha)

Macam mana cara berpantang yang sebenar?

Aaron 12 days old. Kitorang jalan2 makan angin and balik S.Alam sekejap time ni.
Keesokan harinya dia menjadi budak botak!

About a week ago in one evening, I brought Aaron Houdd to a playground. We did the usual things there. Than, I met one Pakistani mother with her pretty daughter playing side by side with Aaron. So we greet each other and started the conversation.

Surprisingly, the mother was actually in her confinement period. She just had delivered her 2nd baby girl for the past 2 weeks.... I asked her who took care of the baby, she said the maid. She said the sister (her first daughter) is so active and loves to kacau the adik that is why she brings her to the playground...Tell you what, she is a doctor! And rileks je dia jalan2 pergi playground and all... Heheh.

So question here: Kalau tak pantang macam mana nak sembuh? habislah nanti bentan!

And terus teringat one famous claim yang selalu I dengar: Muda-muda boleh la tak jaga, nanti dah tua haaa, baru lah sakit itu ini....

So here's another question: How is the real confinement anyway?

Selalunya kalau bercerita pasal berpantang ni akan ada dua kategori: Cara modern and cara tradisional. And kedua2 cara ni memang opposite.

Ada yang cakap cara modern yang betul, tapi kalau kita orang melayu and duduk kat Malaysia, kebanyakannya akan cakap cara tradisional adalah yang terbaik. 

Tapi sebelum pergi kepada detail and tentukan cara mana paling betul, kita tau ke apa dia cara pantang modern, apa pulak cara pantang tradisional? 

OK I bukan seorang doktor, bukan jugak seorang mak bidan. And I cuma baru ada 1 kali pengalaman melahirkan anak. So kalau rasa apa yg I cakap ni salah or tak suka...Tak apa :)

Personally, I paling tak suka kalau orang suka banding2kan cara mana yang modern atau tradisional. Kalau kita buat something yang orang rasa pelik, than akan ada yang cakap "Itu cara modern. Orang muda, mana tau. Nanti dah tua bila dah sakit2 badan barulah rasa"

Kalau kita ikut benar2 cara tradisional pulak, nanti ada pulak yang menyapa "Aduh kau ni, kolot sungguh. Zaman sekarang benda2 ni semua mengarutlah!"

Seolah-olah ada 1 je cara yang betul. 

Melahirkan anak adalah satu perkara yang besar. Apatah lagi kalau czer, operation yang dilakukan tu adalah major operation tau. Incision site tu besar (bayanglah boleh bawak keluar sorang baby, tak besar?)

Bagi I, tak kisahlah apa yang kita nak buat, cara apa nak guna, paling penting biarlah benda tu ada dasarnya, ada objektif dan sesuatu yang terbaik untuk badan kita. Tak kisah la cara tu orang nak kata modern ke tradisional ke...

Perkara paling penting yang kena ambil kisah adalah the healing process itself. Besalin menggunakan banyak tenaga. Kalau yang normal tu nak meneran nya... Pehhh... and nak tahan sakit tu pun memerlukan kekuatan dalaman yang memenatkan jugak kan? So haruslah kita kena REHAT secukupnya sejurus lepas bersalin dan ambil makanan yang BERKHASIAT untuk proses pemulihan dalaman dan luaran.

I rasa semua orang patut faham yang during pantang memang kena banyak REST. Sebab simple je. Nak pulihkan tenaga, and sebenarnya along the way kita berpantang tu dah cukup memenatkan sebab nak take care of diri sendiri yang belum betol2 sembuh and baby. Kalau dapat hire assistant or nany pn OK juga. Tapi siapa kata kalau berpantang kena duduk je, baring je? Uih, mana nak cepat baik macamtu?

I dulu masa 2nd day doktor dah suruh bangun and belajar berjalan. I think this is a normal procedure utk c-sect mom. And kena bersenam jugak sikit2. Baru badan tak rasa letih tak tentu pasal. And not only me, I think zaman sekarang ramai orang berpantang sendiri je. Masak sendiri, jaga anak sendiri, basuh baju sendiri.... Cuma standard la buat sikit2 and ikut termampu je la. Dah awak pun jalan slow motion je nak setle cepat macam mana ye tak? Hehe... Schedule fleksible....

Kalau ikut doktor, semasa dalam pantang memang kena minum banyak air. Sebab 1) taknak badan dehydrate. Nanti lebih letih 2) Nak menyusukan baby kan? kenalah minum air supaya susu pun boleh keluar 3) Mengelakkan sembelit. Bayanglah dah sakit bersalin, sembelit lagi. Oh no!

And than, doktor selalu akan nasihatkan supaya makan makanan yang kaya dengan protein untuk pembentukan dan pemulihan tisu dan sel. Protein base product terbaik adalah dari sayuran dan sumber daging putih. Kalau nak makan daging lembu pun OK. Tp kalau tak bersalin pun semua tau daging putih lebih sihat dan mudah cerna...

Jangan skip sumber nutrisi tertentu semata2 kerana takut jahitan tak baik atau luka lambat sembuh. Masa zaman I kecik dulu I tengok my auntie berpantang makan nasi kosong, ikan bilis goreng and kuah sayur. Aduh, 60 hari makan macam tu je. Oh no!

I faham ada orang cakap makanan sejuk la panas la. I pernah tanya O&G. dia tanya I balik "u ni ada keturunan cina ke? org cina yg selalu ada byk pantang larang, makan sejuk la panas la, fengshui la"... and then dia cakap lagi benda ni is subjektif. kalau nk cakap dari segi saintifik, kalau cth tembikai tak boleh makan sebab sejuk - tembikai mengandungi gula (fruktose etc). ayat mudah, gula akan menjadi sumber tenaga dlm badan. penghasilan tenaga (energy) akan melibatkan pembebasan haba.

I ambil jalan tengah, as I am a scientist I memang tak deny la apa yg doktor ni cakap. cumenye mungkin ia juga bergantung kepada individu itu sendiri. sebab setiap manusia ni unik kan? mungkin ada faktor lain seperti paras kesihatan kita secara umum, penyakit2 lain seperti diabetis ke, darah tinggi ke, sakit saraf/sendi, apa2 infection ke, apa2 lah... atau pun thap toleransi kita terhadap sesuatu bahan makanan - allergy etc. So still, ia bergantung kpd individu. I think seorang individu yg sihat wal'afiat (in general), tiada masalah untuk mengambil makanan2 yang sihat, bersih dan halal kerana tubuh badannya mampu bertoleransi dgn baik. Yang menjadi masalah adalah bila kita makan makanan yg tak sihat (preservatives, colouring, etc) atau tidak seimbang (cth terlebih herbs yg menyebabkan seseorang tak tahan -panas badan, cirit birit, etc atau lebih gula,garam etc). Jangan lupa pengambilan herbs/spices yang sihat juga boleh menjadi mudharat sekiranya ia diambil pada paras yg berlebihan atau tidak disertakan dgn gizi lain. So kalau nak selamat daripada terlebih ambil herbs/spices, yg pd awalnya mungkin boleh mengeluarkan angin dan melegakan badan, better la kita tidak lupakan nutrisi2 dari sumber yg lain.

Oh ye siapa cakap dalam pantang boleh makan APA SAHAJA? heheh... Dah awak sakit kan, kenalah jaga makan jugak...

Pantang pertama, kalau kita hidup memang ada alergik, so time pantang elakkan lah makan apa yang kita alergik tu. Contoh I tak boleh makan seafood macam udang and sotong, and setengah2 ikan macam ikan kembung. Kalau makan nanti naik gatal2. So time pantang I elakkan makan tu semua. Sesetengah orang alahan benda lain macam kerang, kekacang, etc. Up to individual.

I elakkan makan yang berminyak and kolestrol tinggi.. Ala, kesimpulannya, kalau nak tau makanan tu berkhasiat ke tak, makan macam kalau kita sihat tapi nak maintain diet seimbang and taknak gemuk.

Ada orang cakap elok makan ikan haruan ketika pantang esp czer sebab nak bagi luka cepat sembuh. I memang the first 2 weeks I makan ikan haruan je. Yg fresh lagitu! Maybe sebab kandungan protein dia very high kot. And I was told that ikan haruan ni dia ada 1 kelebihan. klu kita pancing dia, terlepas dari kail, dia boleh lompat masuk balik dlm sungai (susha mati). Mungkin due to very high protein content plus other hormones/enzymes yg ada pg ikan tu... Kalau korang dok ovesea makanlah ikan lain, takkan nak carik ikan haruan jugak. Susah kot. Ayam? Ayam pun sumber protein yg baik (daging putih kan). Tapi ramai orang tak bagi makan ayam sbb takut gatal ke apa. I think chicken is not the problem. I makan ayam hari ke3, makanan hospital. OK je.. tp maybe kalau betul ayam tu bg ruam ke, gatal ke apa, samada kita yg alergik ngn ayam, or ayam tu ayam suntik yg kita mungkin tak tahan dgn effect nya. Ayam kampung ok kot (ceruk mana nk carik?).

I think kalau orang cakap jgn minum ais, jgn makan pedas, jgn makan yang angin2, no harm kalau kita ikut. Sbb by nature pun memang those things are not good untuk kita consume. Ais, tak elok kan. pedas tu takut perut memulas kan susah nak ke toilet semua...baby pun kesian...*I ada pengalaman 2 kali demam sebab breast bengkak susu terlalu banyak sebab 1)I minum air sejuk-even no ais kat mcD 2) I gi tengok wayang ngn hubby masa hari ke 35 kot, panggung tu sejuk sangat and air pun sejuk that is why bengkak and demam. So it's a big NO for me on taking ice.hehe*

Other than that I tak berapa strict sangat. Generally, asalkan I rasa benda tu OK in term of nutrition, hygiene and taste of coz, I akan makan. Tapi I bukan nya main ikut suka je. I puas tanya my OnG specialist, and a few kawan2 yang doctor tentang apa yg boleh and tak boleh di makan. In fact, one of my friend, she's a doctor and time pantang dia makan kari ayam. Oh dia pun czer jugak. Hahaha.... I tak la makan kari ayam sebab tak suka kari, bersantan and susah kot nak masak kari ayam. Simple2 sudah.Hehe...

one of my fav during confinement: Pasta salad.

Tu bab makan... Bab berurut, bengkung and tungku?

I rasa tak salah. Asalkan kena pada cara. Yelah, bukan selalu dapat pergi SPA. Silap2 kalau tak bersalin tak dapat merasa orang urut2 badan kita. Tapi sesetengah doktor tak galakkan urutan yang menyakitkan. Sebab boleh jadi worse. Maybe ambil jalan tengah, urutlah tapi jangan yg sampai badan sendiri tak boleh take it. Boleh ke mcmtu? Hehe...

Bengkung ke tak pun bergantung. I masa 2nd day dah pakai girdle. And tell you what, rasa perut lagi ketat and secure. And paling penting kurang rasa sakit sebab kurang gegaran. Ini pun atas nasihat my OnG specialist. I rasa kalau nak mudah, tak payah la pakai yang kain ela panjang2 sape nak tolong ikatkan ye tak? zaman skarang ramai yang pantang sendiri jek, tak de dah mak bidan datang umah.... Pastu agak2 dah baik luka, pakai je korset kan senang. Hehe...

Tungku tu orang cakap nak bagi angin keluar. I tak sure. Tapi kalau nak buat sedap badan, rileks, memang OK lah...haha. Kan dah cakap time ni lah nak manjakan diri. Hehe...

Bab pakai pilis kat kepala, benda ni most ppl yang pakai cakap kepala rasa ringan sebab kurang angin. I dulu tak sempat carik so tak pakai. Tapi one of my problem masa dalam pantang dulu is memang I rasa angin kat kepala. Tak best. Hehe... My late grandma dulu, sapa2 sakit kepala dia memang akan buat pilis. My dad pun penah pakai pilis tu. Hehe...

Jamu and pil, some doctors mmg tak galakkan due to content dia sometimes tak jelas. And most docs and paeds tak bg ambil jamu kalau kita breastfeeding. Alah, I tak makan jamu pun Alhamdulillah sihat. Berat badan sama macam before pregnant. Kalau gemuk pn sbb suke makan malam2. Bukan sbb tak makan jamu. I lebih sayang anak daripada nak cantik. Hehe

So I rasa takde timbul isu tradisional or modern. I tak faham bila doktor cakap benda yang boleh dan tak, bila kita ikut cakap doktor ada jugak orang akan cakap "Doktor tu mana tau, dia modern" I terfikir jugak habis kalau doktor pun tak tau, even dia doktor pakar, so sapa lebih tau? takkan banker, takkan photographer? 

And biasa orang akan cakap time pantang kalau tak jaga betul2 nanti tua sakit2 badan. I totally agree. Silap2 lambat baik. Tapi 'jaga' tu dalam konteks yang betul lah. And kalau nak sihat, bukan time pantang 40-60 hari je kena jaga, pastu lepas pantang makan apa sahaja and tak bersenam. Bajet boleh sihat tubuh badan sampai umur 70 tahun? Silap2 sakit jantung... Point is, kalau nak sihat, kena jaga makan and lifestyle every day!

Kadang2 kalau kita buat kerja rumah time berpantang, orang cakap macam tak syang badan and modern. Tapi kadang2 orang yang cakap tu daripada bercakap apa kata tolong kita buat kerja rumah. Hehe... Kita pun suka kalau ada assistant ye tak. 

And I think ni bukan soal sayang badan atau tak. I think maybe kita beruntung sebab masyarakat kita ni jenis yang 'menjaga' and 'concern'. Tapi tak semua orang ada peluang nak manjakan diri betul2 time pantang. Life must go on maa. I just imagine kalau kita dok negara orang, takde sapa nak tolong sangat melainkan husband and closest friends, nak taknak kena buat sendiri semua kan? Cuma I think it depends on us la strategi apa nak guna untuk memudahkan kerja kita....

Instead, I sebenarnya rasa pelik kalau orang yang dah lepas 30 hari tapi masih tak boleh buat kerja rumah apa semua. I tak cakap I terer tau. Kalau u all baca my prev entries about my confinement, u all tau I pun serabut and kelam kabut time confinement. Tapi kita kena belajar jugak nak taknak. Tak boleh nak keep on blaming the situation. Once dah ada baby kecik, memang hidup berubah, masa takde...Tp bukan maksudnya mustahil utk buat apa yg kita nak... Kena kuat semangat sikit lah.

I teirngat masa I dalam pantang dulu my cousins in law datang visit and dorang kata dorang bajet masa masuk rumah I mesti ada bau orang bersalin and I duduk atas katil je. Sekali I rileks je macam tak bersalin... Hehe.. Ala, time tu dah week 3. Boleh la I berlagak terer sket. Hehe.. Lagipun memang dah boleh jalan and buat kerja... Kalau first week tu memang banyak duduk je lah.Hehe...

Apapun, like I said earlier, I bukan doktor and I tak expert bab ni. Ini cuma my sharing berdasarkan info yang I korek2 masa I berpantang dulu. Czer or normal, basic nya sama je. Yang beza maybe time of healing, cara menjada luke tu and few other small matters...Wallahua'lam...

Aaron 2 month old. Tembamnye time nih!

Another 4 months to go

Huarghhhh.... 4 hours of staying up ended up with only 2 paragraphs of my thesis writing? Oh how pathetic! Hehe... Well, if considering the journals reading and digestion of info, I think the result is fair enough (ayat cover la tue)

I guess my blog is not that active anymore. Not that I don't have anything to share. Honestly there are a lot of things I want to share with you. It's only the matter of time here. But if the average I take about 5-30 min to finish an entry (depending of length and idea), I think I should have no problem to have quite a frequent update here (Macamla ada orang nak baca sangat.Hehe). Anyhow.... Mood is also counted. Sorry. :D

Oh, I already have a facebook account! My hubby did it for me... Maybe he couldn't stand my whine of loneliness and dreariness, so he picked one way to make me happy. Haha... But I normally just take about 5-10 min for my facebook on9 at a time, and normally I'm on facebook for about 3 times per day. (3 diff times, each for about 5 to 10 min)... That is enough to have an update, return comments, and make a few chatting. Only if I want to upload photos, read some info and good articles from the scholars or have a long conversation with my closest friends, I would normally take longer time. Otherwise, I will just switch on the laptop and facebook/YM, but would not be on my desk. So sorry to those who had initiate a conversation with me but I didn't respond to it. I wasn't on my desk. Next time, inshaAllah.

Enough about me, lets talk about Aaron Houdd (at last huh, that's the whole purpose you guys would ever read this blog, right! To know about my boy... Not me. Hahaha)

Well, well, lets begin with his milestone...

He is now 20 months old and 2 weeks. At this point of time, he can pick up short and simple words for a conversation. He begins to mix and match a few words to make sentences. For instance, when we ask him where's the moon, rather than just pointing up or say 'up' he now would answer "up there" and facing up. When he wants me to take a ball for him, he would sometime say "Ummiyo, tik it ball" (Ummi, take the ball). He would have a pause before he pronounce something, perhaps to remember the words. Or sometimes, with full of confident, he just blurt out any obscure sound to pronounce the word. Say when I show him a cucumber, sometimes he'd guess it right. Other time he'd say "fwog" (frog), maybe because of its green colour, or otherwise he'd just say something like "potobow" (some kind of potato and cucmber) or "fed appol" (fried apple). Well, it actually depends on what is the last thing he'd seen/play with. Honestly, sometimes we can't understand what he's trying to say. So pandai2la cover, ask him to repeat several times with encouragement, than baru faham... Haha.

He memorizes 30% of ABC, 40 to 50% of 1 to 10 and 30-40% of Jawi. He knows Al-quran (he calls it qu' an) and he loves to imitate the way we read the Qu'ran... You know, like just mumbling with his own rhythm.  (macam kalau kita baca qur'an kan biasa ada rhythm). But the huruf Kho is what he would always emphasize during the reciting. Funny but impressive! 

Aaon Houdd is an active boy. He can approach anybody when he's in a good mood. He loves making friend. But biasalah kena monitor jugak sometimes the way he plays is quite aggressive. Boy kan... 

And he is a polite boy in some way. Hehe. Other than saying thank you in a small voice, he now knows to say sorry, in a very small voice as well. I notice he would say "showwy" when he wants to pass by us, especially during his play (rolling the backpack, walking with big slippers on his feet, or racing his cars). It is like "excuse me". And kalau he accidently jatuhkan barang, he would say "Allah!" the way we adult say it. Haha

And he's a big helper, too. He often helps me with the laundry (though it would take a few times of loading and unloading the laundry), carrying the dirty laundry to pursue cleaning (he would sometimes hide any of his cloth that he doesn't want it to be cleaned, until I found it somewhere in the drawer or underneath the couch. I would ask first whether he wants the cloth to be cleaned, and when he says "don't want", he'll put it back to where he'd hidden it) Oh sometimes he 'helps' me to put all the cleaned clothes into his stroller and he strolls them everywhere until most of the clothes scatter around. Pheww...

He helps me with the cooking and sweeping too... But most of the time, everything will become messier and all I do the whole day is to clean up and find the hidden things he's been hiding when I'm not looking. Tiresome.... But it's good for his learning proses. And my learning proses as well. :P

Above all, he is my baby (that's what he says), a handsome one (according to him).....

Eid Mubarak.

First time beraya di perantauan... Rasa biasa je, maybe sebab Raya Aidul adha kan, tak macam aidilfitri.Hehehe...

Tapi it was fun here, because we had a tight schedule from Friday sampai semalam. Alhamdulillah, dapat jumpa more new friends during the Eid celebration...

Apapun, lets just enjoy the photos... (Aaron tengah jalan2 dengan Daddy dia. So I better hurry kang tak sempat nak upload... Kita cerita lain waktu ye)

-XOXO-

new friends

We had our solat and jamuan here

Then went to a fellow Kyrgyztan friends. The food're awesome and the family're great!

The next day went to two more Malay Muslim friends that we'd just met during Eid solah. Tired

Went to Global Village. Many people say it's a must-go place. But I personally didn't really enjoy this. Maybe if you can play the games and have some rides you may like it.

Overall, we had fun here during the Eid. Till then, see you soon!

Here comes my whine. Any opinion?

Did I ever tell you that I'd purchased a broadband? Hehehe... (I'm telling you now).

We decided to have a broadband instead of the hotel wi-fi coz apparently the cost is a huge different. (180dhs per month for broadband vs 700dhs per month for wi-fi. A 700dhs is definitely too much!).

But yeah, that doesn't mean I have a total and full access of the internet. and you know why don't you? OK. Good :P... So, with a little time that I have to this internet world, I think I've to come out with a good strategy. which is? Herm.... Well, I don't know yet. But at least for now, I'm gonna share something and at the same time, maybe asking for something in return. Such as... an opinion, a suggestion... from you. Can I? :P

OK first.... Setelah hampir 3 minggu di sini (I seriously lost count on the days), we kinda have quite a steady life here. Steady doesn't mean great. It just... steady. I'm not as stumble as before, not as lost as the first week we're here. But I still don't feel home here. My bad. Huhu

And now the pressure of not yet getting in plan is accelerating. I know that having a toddler in the house plus taking care of the chores shouldn't be an excuse for NOT keepin' up yourself with your work. But I just don't get the rhythm yet, and it is more depressing that way. 

I've tried. But I know perhaps I haven't try my best... 

First, it's a huge mistake to come here without his stroller. Oh, what have we'd been thinking? And that cost us a new stroller for him. (and tetibe terasa pelik bila Aaron ada dua stroller. We even made a joke utk cepat2 tambah adik untuk Aaron so that baru nampak tak pelik kalau ada 2 stroller. Haha. seriously, nak tambah anak just becoz of ada 2 stroller? crazy!) Anyway, the stroller is quite nice if you're planning to buy one, maybe you can consider this...you can click on the link.

Second, We'd bought a few toys for Aaron. But he can stick to one less than a week. Precisely, within 2 days only. Haha... It's not that he would totally abandon the toys but you know, when kids lost their interest in something, they just don't really bother anymore. 

Third, I did try to do my thesis writing. But the most I can achieve is just about 3-4 complete sentences per day. And so far there were no new sentences. Just some corrections to the existing sentences. Urghhh.... The thing is, in writing we do need some flow. We need moments. You know, like you have to be in mood, so that you can really come out with good ideas. And you need to maintain the flow. Mood mesti di cari, I know. And we can't just say kita tak buat sesuatu sebab takde mood. That's a lame excuse, I know. But you see, in writing, we need flow, we need rhythm. Macam mana nak menulis kalau baru 5-10 minit baca article, baru nak digest the info and baru nak karang ayat, suddenly you have to stop. And when you come back later on, nak dapatkan balik moment yang hilang tu... Sometimes you have to start all over again. And scientific writing is not like blog writing (where I can simply ignore mistakes) Hehe...

Oh, even on something as simple as blogging, I took quite a long time to finish. Like for this entry, I paused 3 times, just to have Aaron back to sleep. (It's past midnight now. So imagine this during daytime when he is soooooo alive)... FYI, Aaron still bangun beberapa kali waktu malam untuk breastfeed. Macam baby.

Forth, I am sometimes losing the strength to provide quality time for my boy. The truth is, sometimes we just lie on bed, watching tv by him latching on me- for quite a long time. That's not what I really want. But sometimes that's the easiest for both of us. Sometimes I just too tired to play with him or to bring him outdoor. I'm tired for nothing... I'm just too tired for those. I am not a cool mother, you know. I can't stand tantrums (he rarely have tantrum, Alhamdulillah). I can't take too much clinging (yes, he does this most of the time). He is a manja kid by nature. And maybe I just not that cool as a mother. Maybe I put myself into a lot of pressure, that is why I end up with less patience. 

But after all, he's a really good kid. He is anak soleh. When I'm too tired of his antics, sometimes I just nag as if he could understand me. And when I ask him to say sorry, he'll quickly say "Showwy Ummi"... When he beat me with spoon (ouch, really hurt) or slop his meal over the floor instead of eating it, and when he knows he's caught red-handed, he'll come to me and hug me or kiss me or do whatever that he knows might gonna melt my heart. And my heart melts... Urhhh..... cepat cair la Ummi Aaron ni.... He's a good smart boy huh?

Anyway, I'm sorry if this entry appears to be some kind of a holler. I read about some tips on how to work at home with a kid around. Most people say you need discipline and routine. I totally agree with that. But than, I think I need to work on something else first. Or maybe I need something more specific...Life in here nowadays is quite different from back than. And I have dateline... Dateline... Dateline...

My situation is, I can't simply distract my child with toys. It just doesn't really work that way. And he'll ask me to come along with him wherever he goes, even to the living room, even to 10 steps ahead. And he wants laptop every time I on it. OK, let say the only time I have is when he is sleeping. But that only takes like an hour, and within that time, I've to do a lot other things too. So far, the only solution I have is to stay up at night. I did that twice, but than the next day, I passed out. Hehe... I became less cooler than I already was. Tak larat nak catch up! :P

So, if you have any experience, advice, or anything you can share..... you are most welcome!

He's a good boy. He just loves his Ummi more than anything else in his world.... 

(And I love you too boy.)

Salaam from the Gulf: I'm still alive!

Before I go into details, let me tell you this: This is a drafted entry. I’m not sure when will I get the chance to get connected to a real human world again, but whenever the time is, I’ll post this entry anyway.

(Sounds so depressing ain’t I?)

It is quite depressing in some way that I don’t even know how to start. (Oh cut the crap, it’s the 2^nd paragraph already. Hehe)

OK OK. First of all, I miss everything around me, inside and outside me, back then. I miss my family, my friends, my routine, food, food and yes, food. Hehe… It’s not even a week yet but I’ve sensed a huge void of loneliness here. Bear with me, and you’ll know why. Anyhow, I don’t need reason to miss ya all rite? Likewise, you don’t need reason to miss me, not even have to tell me that you miss me, coz I knew it. Hehe

Alhamdulillah, we arrived here safely at around 2 a.m Malaysia zone. The journey was OK, the food was not bad, and Aaron Houdd was soooo lively all the way here. We were placed (and now residing) in Al-Murooj Rotana, a suite that is so sweet. I never thought to be located in such a place. Honestly, I’d prepared something less similar than place like this. We have a comfy residency here- A small but cozy kitchen with complete cooking and cutlery sets and a washing machine plus dryer (If I know about this, I’d have just bring less clothes, you know- so that bile balik ada banyak space untuk letak barang shopping), daily garbage cleaning, 3 times/week housekeeping, and breakfast for every morning! As an appetizer to this first outlying entry, let us first enjoy the photos:

 So how’s life here? Let’s start with the weather. As we are about to welcome a so-called winter season on November, morning has become hazy. But the atmosphere is dry and dusty. I’ve so far gotten the chance to feel the real weather twice only because I stay indoors most of the time.

Now we talk about time. Malaysia time zone is 4 hours ahead of us. 7 o’clock here is as bright and sunny as 9 o’clock in Malaysia. Maghrib is as the time where Malaysian boys play soccer. If you start your day a lil late, you’d say days are short and nights come so soon…

As for us, we have some issues here. It’s either we are still stuck in Malaysia time zone, doing the routine as following our local time, or we actually have quite a good head-start here. Well, I’d prefer the second guess. Haha.

Naturally, I’m not a morning person. Not pre-marriage, not after marriage, not at all. But it came to a big surprise that I start my days as early as 5.30 am in the morning! As Suboh here is very early, people normally would take a nap before they start their day (office hour is the same like Malaysia). But we don’t (or actually can’t :P)

Coz to make thing smooth, we’ve to take breakfast together, apparently before the Daddy goes to work. Otherwise, I may not gonna have breakfast for the day. And we haven’t really Shoppe for groceries so there’s not much I can eat in the day. Itupun, during breakfast time havoc nya ya rabbi because of who else, Aaron Houdd lah!

Since I don’t have anyone here, so the only human being that I can talk to is of course my baby boy. And yeah, talking to a 19 months old, so you must know how it goes, how it feels huh? The whole day, we only have each other. Daddy is not in the picture because apparently we’re here because of his duty so yes, he has to work from dawn to dark. I glimpse on the time for thousands times per day and it shows that I really can’t wait to have my hubby around!

I never bore being a full time housewife. But with nobody to talk to, no connection to the outside world, I’m going nuts. Alhamdulillah Aaron Houdd is around, but still, kids don’t really understand adulthood life. So as an ordinary human being, I do need friends here. So friends, come pay me some visits, I need ya! J

Oh yeah, Aaron Houdd is my only company here, and I am a full time housewife if you may ask. It seems I've so much time here haven’t I? Yeah, so much time, and I suppose I can start writing my thesis seriously. That’s the plan.

But Aaron Houdd is as lonely as I am. He has no one else to play with, not many toys we have here. So the only attention he can demand is from whom else? The mother!

So as much as I can tell, it’s beyond imagination how Aaron is so attached to me every second. I cannot do much. I can’t even have a relaxing pooping you know? He attaches to me literally for almost every minute. Yes, literally! With susu, or without susu. This, is the biggest challenge for me here coz I have plans, I have many things to do but I just can’t. Honestly, it’s quite depressing.

And time is ticking so slowly here. That’s what I feel. Perhaps it’s due to the very limited *almost null* access I have to the outside world, and I’ve not many activity as an option. But other than that, life is quite OK here, especially for the readjustment of my spiritual behaviors. I know at some points I have to fork out more effort on my original plan, and I’m getting a wee bit frustrated for the fact that I know things are not as easy as everybody may expect. But at least, for the spiritual behavior, I am enjoying the flow, inshaAllah, even for most of the time, Aaron Houdd is pocking my eyes, pulling my telekung and doing various sorts of things to me during my solah, but that is fine to me.

Oh, I think this is too much already for the comeback. I hope to drop here again some other time.

P/S: Aaron Houdd has started calling his every day people around him. I think he misses them so much. That makes me weep!

Xiet Enigma

21/10/11-Approx on the 3rd days here

(I am in the bathroom, teman Aaron mandi masa nak post entry ni.Huh,pathetic!)