My early motherhood experience (confinement day)

Aaron Houdd day 7.. Jalan2 sebab bosan dok umah

Salam girls...

Being a mother especially for the 1st timer is somehow quite challenging. So many questions you ponder about but don't know how to find for the right answers, so many chores you have to do while you hardly get your butt off your bed, plus the little tiny one you have to take care of... Owh, sound very very stressful isn't it?

Of course you will feel content, blessed and happy for having your little one. But it's a normal feeling to get mad, being sad and dissapointed at some point. The mixture of feelings that blend together are incredible!

I'd gone through a great experience of 'early' motherhood during my confinement day. I was c-sected and as you know, it's not easy to bear the pain and the limitation of everything (walking, eating, coughing, etc). I was admitted for the 1st 3 days, and then was taken care by a nanny my hubby had hired for the next 7 days (my moms were also at home at that time). After 2 weeks of delivery, I'd gone back to my apartment, taking care of myself and my baby...and did everything on my own... Alhamdulillah my hubby was a great helper!

But the thing is, I felt lonely, difficult, and sometimes uncertain about anything. Not sure whether or not I was doing the right thing for myself and the baby....My hubby was a very busy working man he always back home late....

So, I have to be independent, and confident! All mommies want the best for their babies!

But it's easier said than done...

I cried a lot... especially at night... I feel tired, exhausted, frustated at things that I couldn't do nicely, and sometimes I felt like giving up.

But I did laugh a lot too. I enjoyed everything I did for my baby, even though it took away all my courage and effort. I mad at things I did wrong, but afterward, I laugh at those things, and started all over again, making sure I'd not repeat the same mistakes again.

I consider myself as a strong woman (just to credit myself...perasan la sikit. Hehe) because I manage to pass the confinement day, most of the time, all by myself. However, My family was a big supporter even though they couldn't be with me all the time. My mom used to visit me and her grandson during her lunch hour time. My dad was the top visitor in the list (to visit the grandson of coz. I was just secondary. Hehe)... And although I was all alone during my confinement day, but I was not left behind. I was surrounded by the people I love.... I couldn't do it if they weren't there for me!

Usually, people just highlight the good and happy thing for having a baby. Some people avoid talking negatives/bad things about it. They seem to ignore or buat2 tak tahu, with the reason "Ish, not nice talking like that!"... I used to share my problem and worriness with one of my friend and she said "Tak buleh cakap macamtu. Awak kena fikir yang baik2 ja. Semua ni dugaan. Biasa lah tu... Nanti kecik hati baby kalau dia tau..."

You know, it's totally OK to talk something not good if it help to ease yourself, especially to calm your heart.... Coz if you deny it, it'll make thing worse....

Because we are all human... We are not perfect. We are learning.

** My confinement style**

Day 4-10

-Time ni best sbb ibu cuti lagi. So xpyh buat keje rumah... jadi permaisuri jugak la. Hehe... Pas hari ke 5 mcmtu ibu dah keje so nanny pulak yg uruskan semua. Nanny ni org philipino yg revert, so xde mslah la dia masak apa pun I makan je...

-I sempat berurut,bengkung and bertungku manja dlm 5 hari jugak la... Nanny yg buat. Nanny dari SPA. I recommend klu nak urut sedap jgn amek dari spa. amek dari kampung....sbb I dpt urut kampung 3x je...pastu give up sbb badan sakit semua... tp mmg sedap la...

-Time ni paling I stress esp waktu malam sebab I xreti lagi nak sesuaikan diri. Pastu incision site sangatlah sakit lagi I masih amek painkiller lagi time ni... Nak gerak untuk tuka position susukan anak pun seksa ya ampun... Pastu malam2 nak gi toilet pun payahhhhh sangat rasa mcm nak gile gak la time ni... dengan my son yg jenis yg muntah banyak... (maybe pun sbb susu I banyak, dia main telan je pastu lebih dose, muntah). Hubby tolong, tp yelah, dia pun kepenatan kerja seharian, malam nk tolong wife lg...kekadang I xkejut pun hubby sebab xsampai hati...

- Biasa org cakap during pantang jgn kua rumah. Tp I xbolh. I bosan and bolh meroyan dibuatnya terkurung je dlm rumah. So I keluar... Visit makcik2, Lepak Mc.D teman adik2, lepak byk tempat la...tp I jaga pergerakan and tgk tempat la nak pegi...

Day 15 - 30

-Every day woke up early...

-Noon time dok depan pc guna internet

-Masa Aaron tido pagi around 10, I start masak untuk myself

-Masa Aaron tido after breastfeed tghr, layan Avatar all 3 seasons sempat habis during confinement :)

-Malam tak masak sbb hubby balik beli mkanan... I just ate whatever I cooked tghr for my dinner if hubby balik lewat sgt

-Buat keje umah time Aaron tido la....so biasa kerja separuh jalan and kena sambung bila next aaron tido time...

- Membasuh, memasak, mengemas, dan semua me yg lain diuruskan sendiri... Tp hubby memang banyakkkkk sangat tolong. tu yg tambah syang tu. Hehe... Mandikan Aaron quite challenging time ni sebab sakit operate pun masih tak pulih lagi... So nak dukung Aaron yg montel time tu, nak bongkok2 bagai, memang seksa jugakla...

Masa ni Aaron 3 bulan kot....

**My menu**

I makan semua makanan yg halal! syarat 1 je: Berkhasiat!

So x goreng2 and minyak2, no lemak2 banyak....

I amek banyak air....seriyes banyak! masalah, pee pee kerap. nak gi toilet seksa ya ampun... tp bagus minum banyak supaya kita tak dehydrate, susu pun banyak, badan pun sihat! PENTING NI.

I makan buah... takde istilah buah panas ke sejuk ke. I makan je. cuma kurangkan yg mana I tengok buat anak I kembung perut... tapi alhamdulillah sepanjang Aaron lahir sampai skang dia jarang kembung perut even I malas stoking kan dia... barut lagi la hampeh. sbulan je kot pakai...pastu tak muat dah semua...

I operate... so penting untuk amek protein supaya luka cepat sembuh... I makan byk ikan...tapi susu hanyer sket la... ayam and daging pn makan...masak je semua style! tapi I like steam sbb paling sehat!

Sayur is wajib seperti juga buah...

-- credit to Cik Iman, Dr. Ijan dan kawan2 lain yg byk berkongsi ilmu especially di dalam bidang perubatan dan kesihatan --

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